What Will You Do For Her?

“I had not told anyone what my God had put in my heart to do for Jerusalem”
Nehemiah 2:12

I can hardly read this passage without weeping or welling up inside with emotion.  This is nothing short of beautiful. So personal…MY God…So passionate…what he will do for Jerusalem…so secretive…he had not told anyone…so supernatural…what God had put on his heart.  He loved Jerusalem.  He wept over her.  He mourned over her.  He fasted and prayed for her night and day.  She had become Nehemiah’s greatest delight because she was God’s greatest delight. And Nehemiah loved HIS God.  It was a divine dream set out on a clandestine journey.

“If I forget you O Jerusalem, may my right hand forget its skill.  May my tongue cling to the roof of my mouth if I do not remember you, if I do not consider Jerusalem my highest joy.” Psalm 137:5

When I decided to ask Carol to marry me 14 years ago, I planned an entire evening of events.  We went to special places.  Places that held memories for us.  We went to a specific restaurant.  We talked about certain things that together we held dear.  I wanted it to be this crazy secret thing I had planned for her...just for her.  Sometimes when we plan that special Christmas or birthday gift for our kids we get really excited.  We know it’s something they want really badly.  We anticipate the moment we give it to them.  Occasionally, we even make them earn it by following little clues that lead to the package.  

What has God secretly put on your heart to do for Jerusalem?  What has God burned inside of you to do for His church, His Bride, His eternal…beloved.  Do you see her beauty, her glory?  Do you hear the drumbeats, the music, the singing, the unending praises being declared from that distant land…the heavenly city that awaits us?  Stop for a moment.  Be very still.  You can hear them…if you have ears to hear.  

What has God put on your heart to do for His people?  Are you secretly excited?  Are you planning it all out like a special gift to be given…like a marriage proposal to be asked?  Are you riding through Jerusalem like Nehemiah, observing the torn down walls, the places of desolation, the broken down gates, the places burned down by fire, the areas in need of repair?  Are you on your knees pleading with God because you don’t know what to do…you don’t know how to fix it?

Do you hurt for her?  Do you want to help her?  Do you want to see God infuse new life into her?  Do you want to see her delivered of all the disgusting, vile, corrupt sin that so easily entangles her?  Do you want to see her delivered from the snare of the fowler?  Do you want to see her flowing in the holiness and the majesty and the glorious power and love of our Lord Jesus Christ, the King?

"If I do not consider Jerusalem my highest joy".  Jerusalem must be our highest joy, our deepest treasure, our greatest mission.  Our nights should be sleepless with her intercession.  Our days should be filled with bricklaying...building up her walls.  She is the bride of Christ...His eternal pleasure...His family.  What will you do for her?

Bulletproof Declaration

"When Jacob awoke from his sleep he thought, surely the Lord is in this place and I was not aware of it".

I have a new prayer. Well, it's more like a declaration. This declaration is for every minute, every second of the day.  I've implanted this declaration in the forefront of my mind. I've taken a spiritual megaphone and shouted this declaration into my soul!  I go to bed with it. I wake up with it. I'm going to write it on post-it notes and decorate my house and my car with it.  I'm going to wrap myself up in the thought of it, relish in the sheer delight of it, and breathe very, very peacefully because of it.

What is it?

The Lord is in this place and I AM aware of it!

The Lord is in this place and I AM aware of it!!!

Let that soak in a bit.

I love it, and I quietly whisper it all the time now.  The Lord is in this place and I am aware of it. Try it.  Declare it, speak it, shout it and whisper it.  Everywhere this life takes you...as you make your way through this sin-ridden, upside down, corrupted world, make the declaration that He is in this place and you are aware of it.  In your most elated moments of joy and satisfaction, make this declaration. In your most frustrating, painful moments, make this declaration that He is in this place and you are aware of it.

Jacob awoke that morning to an epiphany.  Love those. Wish they happened every day. But they don't. Sometimes I just sit and stare at the air.  I wish I had command over it because I would just rip it wide open and run to see the face of the one that was ripped wide open for me.  Jesus...holy and anointed one.  How I love thee!  Jacob awoke to such a powerful presence of God that he trembled as he realized..."this is none other than the house of God...the gate of heaven."  And here we are on common soil with Jacob; with angels cascading stairways all around us...but even better!  We have Christ in us...the incarnate Son of God!  The psalmist declares "the earth is the Lord's and everything therein" but "our citizenship is in heaven", our inheritance is in His eternal kingdom.  Physically we are here.  Positionally we are there, “seated in heavenly places with Christ”.  We share and we inhabit both.  We temporarily walk this earth but our names are written there!

When life brings the severest of trials, I whisper…the Lord is in this place and I am aware of it…because the Lord himself is the author and grantor of my tribulation. Every joy and trial is from God, the hymn says and it is my choice to cleave to every fear and deceptive growling from the enemy or hold unswervingly to the hope I profess and attack the lies of doubt and unbelief with this declaration of truth.

It's as though it's a bulletproof declaration shielding us from every flaming arrow and lie from the enemy of our souls. This declaration doesn't just bounce darts off of us.  It takes in every lying arrow, exposes it for what it is, and brings forth and celebrates the truth of each matter.  It invites heaven into every...every...every situation you might find yourself in and helps discover a God who has NOT stopped "working everything in conformity with His purpose and will" and "works all things to the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose".

A couple of days ago I was driving along unnecessarily worried and fretting about the future...the future of my family, my job, my health...everything basically.  I began to whisper these words…the Lord is in this place and I am aware of it...the whisper grew to a shout as I realized that God is the CEO of this planet and NOTHING gets passed Him!  Every joy and every tribulation flows from our Master.  The shout grew to ever-flowing praises and prayers that seem to well up within me...finding no end.  He is in this place and He has assigned this moment for me!

Our minds, our flesh may declare that He is a million miles away but our minds and our hearts are no match for the truth of God's word.

Are you longing for Jacob's epiphany?  Has it been some time since you sensed His tangible presence and recognized the company of heaven in your midst?  Do you need Jesus to come nearer?  I do.  I need Him to come alongside of me, put his arm over my shoulder, take me for a walk, look around with me and point to all the fun and mysterious things He created and tell me about each one of them.  I need Him to reassure me that He's still CEO and though things seem terribly crazy down here, it's all as it should be.  He is author and He is perfector...

Jacob was in a mundane, no big deal place...or so he thought..."a certain place"...He laid his head on a rock...not too comfortable...

What kind of place are you in?

Try it.  Whisper the words.  See what happens...

C.A.S.T.

Manna-it literally means…what is it?  The Israelites ate when they did not know

what it was.  They ate what they could not comprehend.  They ate what they were confused by.   They ate this food, this manna…they ate the mystery. 
Ann Voskamp

I am a Trauma Consultant for a medical device company.  I represent the company that creates and manufactures the plates, screws, nails, rods, pins of internal and external fixations that hold a fracture together until it heals.  Many of the broken bones that come into the hospital are very severe…multi-fragmented…they have to be pieced back together by master surgeons and held in place with these devices.  This is not always the case.  Many patients come into the surgeons' offices, and they only have a sprain.  They just need a friend or family member to help them around for a few days or even weeks.  Then there is the majority…the moderate or moderately-severe fractures.  They need a cast to hold the bone in place for a few months until it heals.  The cast is then removed so the person can slowly begin moving their bones, muscles & ligaments on their own until they are fully functioning again.

The church is a hospital…full of trauma…full of broken people.  Sometimes these broken souls need a master surgeon; a pastor or even a mental health professional.  Sometimes it’s just a sprain and they need a friend to help them around for a few days or even weeks.  Then there’s the majority…those that have moderate or moderately-severe fractures of the heart/soul and need a cast…someone to come alongside and hold them up until the fractured soul heals enough to stand on its own.

C.A.S.T.  Care Advisors of South Tulsa.  These are people formally trained with 50 hours of time-tested tools to come alongside a hurting person and in the power of the Holy Spirit and the Word of God…like a cast…they hold them up and encourage healing until the person can stand on their own again, and serve the Lord in wholeness.

“Rejoice with those who rejoice, mourn with those who mourn” Romans 12:15

Manna-it literally means…what is it?  The CAST training is very unique.  These Care Advisors are trained to be caregivers…not cure-givers.  They know that there is only one cure-giver, Jesus Christ.  They are trained to come alongside a person devastated with life circumstances that force the questions…what is this?  How do I comprehend this?  Why am I forced to eat this “manna” that I cannot understand?  The Care Advisor walks alongside and instead of trying to answer the questions…he or she simply agrees…this is incomprehensible…this is chaotic…this is confusing…this is…a mystery.  

The Care Advisor courageously walks down into the pit, the valley of the shadow of death with the hurting person.  There is one distinct difference, though.  The Care Advisor is firmly rooted in Christ, His Word, and the power of the Holy Spirit.  The Care Advisor, surrounded by and rooted and grounded in accountability/advisory groups and time-tested training, reaches one hand into the care-receiver’s darkness while firmly gripping the Tree of Life, Jesus Christ.  The two hold the “manna” together.  They mourn together.  But ultimately the Care Advisor is ever-pointing to hope, to joy, to revelation, to wisdom, to healing, to transformation, to restoration, to salvation, to Jesus Christ.

Have you ever reached out to someone, helped them, and walked away full? 

Jesus said he had manna that we did not know of, and His meat was to do the will of the Father.  When we enter into the life, the pain, the pilgrimage of another and make the decision that, yes, whatsoever we do to the least of these, we do unto Him…we encounter the living God, Jesus Christ in such a way that can be found in no other place.  He has manna that satisfies…fully.  His manna for us is to do the will of the Father.  The will of the Father is to bear one another’s burdens.

“He reveals deep and mysterious things and knows what lies hidden in darkness, though he is surrounded by light.”  Daniel 2:22

In this life I have suffered greatly, and I know many others that have, as well.  But in the times of greatest darkness, I have discovered the greatest light. I believe that by reaching into another person's heart and life of suffering, we are not only filled with His manna, but we penetrate deep and mysterious things…things that lay hidden in darkness.  In the darkness, He reveals His secrets…the secrets of His marvelous light.  He gives us hidden manna...we see and we behold the face of God!

Members of C.A.S.T. give because they care.  But because they care…they receive…

God's Alchemy

“May I become a weapon in your hand, fashioned by fire, sharpened and hammered to perfection, to slay the principalities of darkness and wickedness.”

I would like to say I was deep in prayer on the mountain of glory, kneeling before the throne of God, hands lifted in exultant joy and Godly fervor when I wrote this prayer but that would be a lie.  Truth be told, I was sitting at the kitchen table, 3 a.m.ish., lost in a dark, spiritual fog, struggling with sin, tormented with a difficult situation I was in, and seemingly dead to, and a million miles away from my Lord!

It is an excerpt from a prayer that I had written early that morning on a paper towel that was laying on the table.  My wife and children found it the next morning still laying there.  They loved it, and decided to make it into a huge wall hanging as a Christmas present for me.  They bought a canvass, wrote the prayer out in script, decorated it with cool, artsy colors and various other "unique items"....even used some burlap sack and barbed wire!  It now hangs in the middle of our living room as a testament of who we desire to be.

It was the best Christmas present I had ever received!  My family is amazing and they saw my heart in that prayer and desperately wanted to make it as a tribute to their Dad/Husband.

However...a deep, painful, difficult valley wrought with spiritual deadness, temptation and prayerlessness does not really seem like a thing to create a shrine or “testimonial” piece of art out of, and then hang on the living room wall!

Or is it...?

Do we really want to follow Him?  God is tender.  He loves us...deeply...we really are the object of His passionate affection.  He holds every one of our heartbeats and cradles them intimately in His Heart.  He is painting eternity for us right now, with joy unspeakable quickly approaching!  I tremble at the thought of the ultimate doom of those who have tormented His children through the ages.  He loves us and defends us with passion that rises from the deep...very...very...deep places.

Alchemy-the process of transmuting a common substance, usually of little value, into a substance of great value.

He loves us...and like a sword we are hammered, folded, twisted and burned of our impurities, tempered only under the most extreme heat...he looks and searches for the perfect ingredient that would complete us...and shape us into the extraordinary man or woman of God He has called us to be.  His alchemy is perfect.  His love is unfathomable.

He loved me that early morning two years ago.  I wonder if He found the perfect ingredient He was looking for.  I may have been dried up and struggling, but that prayer was squeezed out of me because that prayer is exactly what he was doing in that moment. Forging me...for a future purpose.  I wonder if He found the perfect ingredient He was looking for because I can pinpoint to that day a major shift in my walk.  I can pinpoint to that day the beginning of a real steadfastness in my walk that I had been seeking and longing for. I had been through many valleys and struggles the 18 years I had been following Him, and I still stumble. I still struggle. But there has been a deep trust, a deep confidence, a deep awareness of His "ever-presence" that I have been enjoying for over two years now...since the morning of this prayer...a certain level of completeness and abiding joy.

Below is the full prayer.  I encourage you to pray it.  I won’t make any prosperity-gospel promises but I will say it was a definite turning point in my walk!  I walked away from the kitchen table that morning thinking…I’m done!  I’m done wallowing around in the muck and mire and the “valley of indecision”.  I walked away thinking I have one shot at this…one shot for all eternity to walk by faith and allow myself to purely be a weapon in His hand to slay the enemies of God.  Why wouldn’t I want to defend the purposes of Him who loves me so deeply?

God, please make me your instrument.  May this life not be lived in vain.  May I become a weapon in your hand, fashioned by fire, sharpened & hammered to perfection, to slay the principalities of darkness and wickedness.  Out of my weakness and your strength, cause enormous faith to erupt from within me.  Help me to slay my dragons of fear and confusion.  Cause me to ride forth victoriously with valor and vision at my side.  Rescue me from my impurities.  Cleanse me of my sin.  That I may see you & behold the one I desire above all.  My longing for the light of your countenance, the deep wealth of your word spoken, and the rich fragrance of your presence are almost too much to bear.  I remember how you visited me through the day always close…surrounding me.  Your words impregnated my soul without relent.  Worship was my every thought, my every breath, and my steadfast response.  I pray for a new chapter to begin.  Perhaps something deeper, a rekindling,. Perhaps this is a new invitation…to your altar, the secret place.

Distinctly Suffering, Ever Perceiving

When you feel as though you are the only one in the world, in fact, the only one throughout time that is going through what you are going through, suffering what you are suffering, and hurting to the extent you are hurting…and you feel as though nobody can completely understand or appreciate the complexities of your problem and the depth of your desperation; just know one thing...You are absolutely, one hundred percent correct.

Nobody is, and nobody ever has distinctly suffered in the way you are right now in this moment. Nobody has been granted the gift of distinctly suffering with Christ, in Christ, on the cross, in the Holy Spirit...in the way you are now. Do not let anyone ever take that away from you. Do not let anyone ever tell you that you are not the only one going through what you are going through! These people lack understanding! And unknowingly they rob you of the right to hurt. They rob you of the journey to experience Christ at new, untold depths through the avenue of distinctly suffering.

Minimizing your suffering robs you of the opportunity to experience His love, His comfort, His hope, His healing, His restoration and most importantly, His heart. At times, His heart…the untold depths of His heart…can only be found through suffering with Him and embracing Him at the cross. Your loss is no light matter...no light affliction. Be affirmed in your pain that it is real...it hurts...it is breath-stealing...but also be affirmed that in this breath-stealing journey through loss....the incarnation of Christ in you and with you… and Christ on the cross...is there to be breath-reviving...breath-giving and glory revealing.

There are times when I feel I don’t even want to attempt to fully explain suffering that I have
experienced in the past or even suffering I am currently bearing because I fear the listener might be tempted to minimize my struggle; therefore robbing me of the sacredness of what is happening to me in the moment. This is where it takes a true man or woman of God. This is where it takes a true Christ-embracing, burden-bearer to join in the holiness of your journey. 

It takes a very special person to enter into or even desire to enter into sharing with you a few moments of your pilgrimage. It takes a man or a woman of true wisdom and Godly insight to recognize that we as Christ-followers were appointed to suffer. It takes a person of experienced desert-dwelling to be able to recognize the brother or sister's sacred thirst and to be able to gently point the way to live-giving water. It takes someone of deep understanding to recognize disorienting loss in another and to be able to offer the mystery of embracing the cross and perceiving His glory...through the groaning...through the agony.

Many times there is no explanation for our suffering. It just sucks. It's just plain horrible. But He is not. And His purposes are not. He is good...really good...really perfect. We just cannot see.

Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely. 1 Corinth 13:12 NLT

What an amazing promise...what hope this brings.

Doesn’t this bring to rest, at least, a few questions...clear up a little confusion?

A few days ago I dropped my IPhone and shattered the glass. I haven't replaced it yet and it’s proving to be quite a challenge to see clearly through all the cracks. It's actually quite frustrating trying to maneuver the screen to make out certain words and numbers. It’s not totally shattered...just enough to still be functional but in definite need...to see clearly. I’m currently writing this entry on my broken phone, struggling in my attempt to see through the shattered puzzling pieces.

We see imperfectly! Did you get that? We see imperfectly! Our knowledge of life and God and how things work...how the cosmos work...is partial and incomplete! The events that are taking place in our lives are like puzzling reflections in a mirror! They don't always make sense. Things don't always work out like we think they should. The prosperity gospel is a farce!  The only victory we can claim is the fact that our lives have been transformed and translated into His Kingdom of light...and we have been invited to walk by faith! We can't see. We can't see clearly! We can't walk by sight! We walk in the mysterious realm of faith!

Distinctly suffering, ever perceiving. Things are not as they seem. Jesus suffered completely. We have been invited to perceive, to grow, to experience, to allow life and truth and faith to unfold until we know completely as we are known. I have found my God, my Father, my Lord Jesus Christ in the heights of joy and in the depths of agony, in great moments of enlightenment through His word and through frustrating moments of confusion.

I would trade away none of it…for in so doing I would trade away the surpassing greatness of the knowledge of Christ.

United with Him in suffering; encountering Him in glory.

Beautiful Sons Beautiful Daughters

The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit."  John 3:8

Have you ever listened to the wind on a quiet afternoon when you’re sitting in the privacy of your home?  Have you listened to its strength, its fierceness as it blows against the house?  Have you listened for what it has to say?  Have you listened to its screams, its cries? Have you wondered where it came from or where it is going?  Have you felt its omnipotence as it surrounds your house?

The sons and daughters of the Most High God!  I marvel at them!  The beauty of God they display!  The mystery of the Holy Spirit they emanate!  While the world glitters with gold and fame, the children of God, the anointed ones, quietly but stunningly shine like stars in the universe against a blackened sin-ridden, dark world!  What breathtaking power they contain!  What hope radiates from their hearts as heaven dances about them.  If their suffering hearts only knew!!!...what awaits them…what surrounds them…what enfolds them in every moment.  Praise awaits you oh Zion, City of God!  Bride Eternal!

Everyone born of the Spirit is blown about by a mysterious wind…the Holy Spirit.  You may not be able to tell where they are coming from or where they are going.  You may harshly judge, falsely accuse, inaccurately critique, but mark my words…or better yet, His words, “the wind blows…you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going, so it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”

It is so easy to harshly judge our own actions or the actions of others.  Sometimes it might be necessary to take a step back and look at our brothers and sisters in Christ, and ourselves and realize that the Holy Spirit is doing a mighty, eternal, mysterious work in each one of us.  It might be necessary to take a step back and instead of judging the pilgrimage of others we might invite God to reveal the amazing secrets He has in store for the hurting persons that offend us.  

“the Lord will perfect that which concerns me”

"but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me"  

Sin is the struggle of every man.  Hurt is the burden that we all carry.  Our souls magnify Him in one breath and agonize with Him in the next.  It’s called living in a fallen world.  Our faith is a journey and an act of war.  No brother or sister is exempt.  We may look upon another or even ourselves and see chaos, confusion, poor decisions or “unusual choices”.  But mark His words, “everyone born of the Spirit…cannot tell where they come from or where they are going”.

“judge not lest ye be judge”

"He must increase, I must decrease"

Do you have a son or a daughter?  Think of the work you are investing in them.  Think of the hope you have for them.  Yes, you know every fault, every blunder…but what they are becoming!...Magnificent!

Magnificent are the holy ones, the chosen people of God, the kingdom of priests born from above, those that carry His Majesty, the Ambassadors of an invisible, eternal Kingdom!  Dare not dwell upon their flesh but instead marvel at who they are and what they are to become…in this life and in the life to come.

They are blown by a mighty and mysterious wind that does not blow against physical houses as mentioned above.  They are blown by the Holy Spirit!  They contain the power of the Most High God…the power that, like the early apostles contained, has the potential to “turn the world upside down”.  Mighty are the glorious sons and daughters of Israel.  Let them march and go forth in Christ Jesus, calling upon the Spirit of God and the gifts of God they have been given.

“not by might, nor by power, but by His Spirit”

Do you feel it?  Do you sense it?  The power of His Spirit…the only force to overcome the treachery of this world…follow it…trust it...trust Him…ask Him to show you the beauty of walking in His Spirit.  Ask Him to show you the beauty of His people who surround you…it’s easy to see their faults…ask Him to show you their magnificence…their glory…their radiance…the magnificence, the glory, the radiance that comes only from Him, Christ our King!

“love those who hate you”…I’m talking about those in the Body of Christ.

Witch Hunt

"Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace."  Ephesians 4:3

Why do we slay one another?

What are we doing to each other?

Why are we not linking arms together in this fight?

We're in this together!

The enemy is picking us apart!

We are picking each other apart!

The setting in Arthur Miller's, Crucible, was the Salem witch trials of 1692.  Miller used these witch hunts to draw a parallel to McCarthyism in the 1950's.  In both cases whether it be paranoia of witches or paranoia of communism, people were found brutalizing one another for unfounded reasons.

What about Christians brutalizing one another in the church?

We set ourselves up as gods judging and critiquing how the object of our obsession should act, live, love or "follow Jesus" better.  We see minor faults and move in for the kill...slaying our brothers and sisters in Christ...friendly fire...only not so friendly.  It could even be a simple glance, a miss-spoken word or even worse, someone actually sinned!  They actually did something wrong....messed up...stumbled and fell! 

Now we've really got reason to nail them to the cross!  Oh and just to make sure, let's call up a friend and gather up some ammo and make sure there's nothing left of our offender!  Let's make sure there is nothing left of our offender's character.  Let’s make sure there’s no hope of restoration.  Oh it’s gonna feel so good!  It's gonna make us feel so good about our own filthy rags of righteousness as we discuss the intimate details of their inadequacies!

I was having coffee with a friend a few days ago and this subject came up.   Why do we slaughter each other in the church, and worse yet why do we slaughter those that don't know Christ but might actually want to?  Why do we make it so difficult for the homosexual, the sexually immoral, the drug addict, and the "not-so-perfects" to sit in our pews?  Ya know, the ones that might actually need him?

The two of us had several ideas (I'm sure there's many) but after thinking about it a little more, I believe I've discovered the core issue...

Lack of depth....our walks are shallow.

If we were consumed with Christ, with our affection fixed on Him, enamored by His presence and entrenched in His word, then the faults of others would pale in importance.  They wouldn't stand a chance vying for our attention. Our attention would be locked on to the one who is locked onto us...the one who is in love with us.  The only attention we would give to the shortcomings of others would be to allow it to remind us and call us to repentance, in our realization of our own sins, and intercession to hold up those who are falling.

I love it when Job said the lord will perfect that which concerns me.  The lord will perfect that which concerns us.  We are the lord's workmanship…not each other’s. Sometimes I wonder if our shallowness breeds boredom, and our boredom breeds gossip, slander and judgment.  I wonder if our emptiness and lack of depth in our relationship with God breeds a fleshly desire to raid the lives of our fellow Christians.  Instead of getting away with god and peering into His mysteries we are busy getting away with gossip buddies and peering into the personal failures of others.