"In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am."
"I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you."
If I could only see the Father...he seems so within reach...just right there...if I could only catch a glimpse...of what he's doing, the work he's accomplishing...he's just right across...the divide...?
While the brief glimpse of my childhood above may evoke a sense of sadness or longing, I think it illustrates, to a certain extent, the longing we grapple with as God-chasers. We long for Him, to be with him, to catch small glimpses of Him, to walk with Him in the cool of the day as he talks to us, shows us things, and reveals truth and love. But as God-chasers, our longings are intermingled with hope...hope that is alive. In Ted Dekker's book, The Slumber of Christianity, he poses the question...are we being driven by the pleasures of this world or are we being drawn by the light of the glories to come? He goes on to say the pleasures of this life are to be enjoyed if we bathe them in an obsession of what's to come...for they are small glimpses of the glories to come...eternal pleasures at his right hand.
Longing for God, awaiting His return, setting our hope fully on the grace to be given us when Jesus Christ is revealed...for we will appear with him in glory! What a fantastically real and mysterious and abundantly life-giving treasure hunt we have been sent on! Yes, inwardly we groan...and it is agonizing at times but deep in the heart of the expedition comes bread from heaven, glimpses of the divine, nuggets of wisdom eternal, and delightful feasts in the presence of our enemies, our agonies. The hugs from our children, the tastes of our foods, the richness of our friendships, the best-selling book, the mystifying movie, the ski trip, the weekend at the lake, the amazing prayer time, sermon or worship service are all tiny glimpses of the wonder to come.
I accept the empty longings. I know this life is temporal and each longing reminds me of those who suffer with no hope, no knowledge of His joy, His redemption. Each moment found aching reminds me to lay down my life in intercession for those destined never to taste His glories divine apart from a miraculous intervention. I long to know completely as I am known, like that 5 year old boy in Tulsa, Oklahoma longed to be with his father who was just a few yards away in that cold, stark white building. I inwardly groan but am also filled with an inexpressible joy.
A fire burns and rich dew falls as I walk through what I often find, a barren land with leafless trees and winter-browned grasslands. He gives me sight...mysterious power...living hope...food and shelter...this is the Lord God who walked through the Old Testament guiding and governing His creation...this is the Lord God who gave His Son in the New Testament...this is my sweet Savior and my heart is only for His...He is my affection, and I joyously long for Him.
Am I driven by the pleasures of this world or drawn by the glories to come? I would say both. I am driven and drawn by everything that grants me, however small, a taste of the eternity to come spent with my Father...my God...my King.
Sean, You are a Psalmist. A poet of spiritual divination. Most can't understand. I picture the young man that you told us about on that Sunday night at the Lords Supper. Agnostic. Or, polytheistic. I don't know... Searching, yet scoffing at "believers". And, yet. One day. In desperation you turned to His Word. And, It "came alive". "I'm so glad you are saved"....
ReplyDeleteSean u r a gr8 daddy, and I am blessed to know u! I hugged my family after reading this! Thank you!
ReplyDeleteThnx Sean.
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